The beginning of my story

In 2004 while sitting in class at the New York Theological Seminary God began to speak to me. One might refer to it as having a God moment or hearing a Word from the Lord. Either way, there was no doubt in my mind that I had just had an encounter with a very real God.

I wasn't dreaming and there was no reason for me to think it was my imagination. God really does speak but when He does it's up to us to hear His voice.

My professor was lecturing and as she was speaking I heard a still small voice. She was sitting behind the desk and it was right in front of me. As she lectured I maintained eye to eye contact with her. But the moment God began to speak I picked up my pen and begin to write as fast as I could. I didn't want to miss anything God had to say.

In a gentle voice this is what the Spirit of God said, "Don't you dare sell another copy of your book until you re-write it. I want you to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. What good is it that you say that you are totally healed but have not shared what scarred you in the first place? If you don't re-write your book you are doing a disservice to my people".

With fear and trembling I put my pen down. For a moment I just sat there. God definitely had my attention. At that moment I resolved not to sell another copy of my book. A friend of mine who I have known for a few years was sitting right next to me. I wanted to tell her what had just happened but I was too embarrassed. I thought that she would probably think that I was crazy so I kept it to myself. But as an act of obedience I did as I was told. I re-wrote my book, "Still Scarred, Totally Healed: Opening Your Heart and Mind to God's Healing of Past Hurts".

Working on this book has helped me in both practical and spiritual ways. Revisiting the miracles God has done and is doing even now is awesome. Whenever you think about your encounters with a true and living God your faith increases because He is so faithful. It's nothing that we have done ourselves, but it's by the grace of God that we are still here today.

I had many challenges while working on this book. But I believe that there is a word of healing for you. Revisiting this book has not been about me. God loves you so much and wants to see you come into wholeness that He told me if I didn't re-write it I would be doing a disservice to you.

God is getting ready to do an awesome work in your life. It's not about me, but it's about your destiny. We serve a mighty big God who is able to do exceedingly more than you could ever think. It's your time and your season to be blessed in every area of your life.

We're living in a time and place where many people are stuck and don't know why. They don't understand that even after you are saved, there's still some work that the Holy Spirit needs to do in our inner man. Many don't understand why they do the things that Christians should do and yet they can't seem to touch God. They know He's there yet, they are unable to feel His presence in the atmosphere.

I submit to you today that perhaps there is a hole in your soul that hasn't healed. Do you have invisible scars haunting you from your past? Are they infected? Do they bleed into your relationships. Are you pretending that something didn't happen, yet it really did? Does your life mirror brokenness?

If you've been wounded by childhood sexual, verbal, mental and psychological abuse rape, incest or domestic violence and have not dealt with the reality of your painful past God is looking for you.

If you feel that you are stuck there is a reason why. Most times we don't look at our past when we're trying to find out who we are or what's underneath our pain. But doing so can make a difference in our lives. If you're hurting there is healing for everywhere you hurt.

Until next time,

Patrina M Wright